images that remind me of them
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
in realizing you're not frightened
O ME! O life!... of the questions of these recurring;
Of the endless trains of the faithless—of cities fill’d with the foolish;
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light—of the objects mean—of the struggle ever renew’d;
Of the poor results of all—of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me;
Of the empty and useless years of the rest—with the rest me intertwined;
The question, O me! so sad, recurring—What good amid these, O me, O life?
Answer.
That you are here—that life exists, and identity;
That the powerful play goes on, and you will contribute a verse
- Walt Whitman
things i wish i recently found:
1. my ipod. %#@$*.
2. a job.
3. the little heart shaped cardboard box mallory gave me.
4. an easy recipe for cheese enchiladas.
5. money in my trouser pocket.
6. the irritating human being who superimposed obama's face on the classic norman rockwell 'freedom of speech' painting so i can give them a good talking to. give me a break people. don't mess with important art.
7. a previously undiscovered nook or cranny in my suitcases to fit all of this stuff that has materialized...
8. a reason not to leave. or rather, a means to stay.
9. a hidden artistic talent i never knew i had.
10. a surprise travel companion.
11. a treasure map to the sea. i need the ocean.
Of the endless trains of the faithless—of cities fill’d with the foolish;
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light—of the objects mean—of the struggle ever renew’d;
Of the poor results of all—of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me;
Of the empty and useless years of the rest—with the rest me intertwined;
The question, O me! so sad, recurring—What good amid these, O me, O life?
Answer.
That you are here—that life exists, and identity;
That the powerful play goes on, and you will contribute a verse
- Walt Whitman
things i wish i recently found:
1. my ipod. %#@$*.
2. a job.
3. the little heart shaped cardboard box mallory gave me.
4. an easy recipe for cheese enchiladas.
5. money in my trouser pocket.
6. the irritating human being who superimposed obama's face on the classic norman rockwell 'freedom of speech' painting so i can give them a good talking to. give me a break people. don't mess with important art.
7. a previously undiscovered nook or cranny in my suitcases to fit all of this stuff that has materialized...
8. a reason not to leave. or rather, a means to stay.
9. a hidden artistic talent i never knew i had.
10. a surprise travel companion.
11. a treasure map to the sea. i need the ocean.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
i recently found:
1. i love to cook even when the onions make me cry
2. sometimes i have to stop what i'm doing just to write
3, i would rather be held than kissed
4. i'm only a perfectionist when i'm cooking
5. i would be happy in a cardboard box if i could have new flowers every morning
6. i would like to live in san francisco
7. my favorite sound in the world is a guitar being tuned
8. when babies fall asleep in your arms, you start to remember that life is simply good
9. i'd like to be the kind of quirky girl who says she'd rather a bouquet of balloons than flowers. but as mentioned before, flowers float my boat. and i'm scared of balloons...
10. i love the earth and all its friends, but when it comes to hot showers i am an environmental thief
11. and this written on the back of a 'to do' list:
had some time to think about you
bundled from up there in ribbons and bows
putting pink polish on your nails you feel like a girl
are you going to the ocean with those flowers in your hair
wearing sylvia plath on your back and your toes in the grass
throwing punches from where you stood on a chair
oh mice and little boys and the way they stare
you sing of flowers and lace and curls
but you are not a young lady and you don't look like you're adored
despite your rouge and red wine lips and french bottle of kiss
you don't have me fooled in your ballerina shoes
princesses don't have to pretend so hard
you shouldn't keep secrets that you don't know
we'll meet again down the road, you less traveled than you hoped
and i would like to have forgotten you and your ink pens and notepaper
i don't remember doing that. ten points if i can remember what it's about...
2. sometimes i have to stop what i'm doing just to write
3, i would rather be held than kissed
4. i'm only a perfectionist when i'm cooking
5. i would be happy in a cardboard box if i could have new flowers every morning
6. i would like to live in san francisco
7. my favorite sound in the world is a guitar being tuned
8. when babies fall asleep in your arms, you start to remember that life is simply good
9. i'd like to be the kind of quirky girl who says she'd rather a bouquet of balloons than flowers. but as mentioned before, flowers float my boat. and i'm scared of balloons...
10. i love the earth and all its friends, but when it comes to hot showers i am an environmental thief
11. and this written on the back of a 'to do' list:
had some time to think about you
bundled from up there in ribbons and bows
putting pink polish on your nails you feel like a girl
are you going to the ocean with those flowers in your hair
wearing sylvia plath on your back and your toes in the grass
throwing punches from where you stood on a chair
oh mice and little boys and the way they stare
you sing of flowers and lace and curls
but you are not a young lady and you don't look like you're adored
despite your rouge and red wine lips and french bottle of kiss
you don't have me fooled in your ballerina shoes
princesses don't have to pretend so hard
you shouldn't keep secrets that you don't know
we'll meet again down the road, you less traveled than you hoped
and i would like to have forgotten you and your ink pens and notepaper
i don't remember doing that. ten points if i can remember what it's about...
Monday, May 11, 2009
t minus 10 musings and counting
i've written four journal entries and haven't taken a single picture.
Kristen: well this is your home. when you live somewhere you don't really take pictures of your bedroom.
i decided last week that my heart is in rwanda. i've loved it since the first time i saw it. i might say i'm more at home in rwanda than even in uganda. mukono has become familiar in a way that i love and that makes my cheeks blush. but rwanda. i feel rwanda in my skin. i feel comfortable in kigali in a way i rarely feel comfortable. ever. yeah, it may have something to do with rwanda driving on the right side of the road. but somewhere beyond that, i'm content. i'm content surrounded by its hills and cool weather and community. content in a way i've always been looking for. rwanda makes me happy. plain and simple. i think i want to live there. i think i will.
if you'll come with me.
Kristen: well this is your home. when you live somewhere you don't really take pictures of your bedroom.
i decided last week that my heart is in rwanda. i've loved it since the first time i saw it. i might say i'm more at home in rwanda than even in uganda. mukono has become familiar in a way that i love and that makes my cheeks blush. but rwanda. i feel rwanda in my skin. i feel comfortable in kigali in a way i rarely feel comfortable. ever. yeah, it may have something to do with rwanda driving on the right side of the road. but somewhere beyond that, i'm content. i'm content surrounded by its hills and cool weather and community. content in a way i've always been looking for. rwanda makes me happy. plain and simple. i think i want to live there. i think i will.
if you'll come with me.
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